Curious Bloggings

How I Use the Community Marking

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By no means do I claim to be a bigot, but I grew up in an area where progressive thinking was far from the norm. Because of that, I have ingrained in me a natural resistance to ways of life I may not necessarily understand.

That being said, I am human, which means I have an innate need to love and be loved. With that in mind, how can I not love those who are trying to make their lives and the lives of others better and more loving?

By focusing on the Community marking, I shed my inner...

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How I Use the Silence Marking

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I find when I am in a quiet space, whether it be a silent room or a field at night, that stillness can bring noise inside – thoughts run rampant. As a schizophrenic person, this becomes the height of my paranoia and delusions. It brings disturbance to a place that is supposed to be peaceful.

By focusing on the silence marking, I create silence inside that drowns out the disturbance. I turn the light of the moon and stars to to cymbals of peace, I turn the vibration of the blankets...

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How I Use the Leading while Following Marking

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When I think of a leader in a subordinate position, I think of a rebel whose sole purpose is to challenge authority without actively attempting to de-legitimize said authority. A 'polite' rebel, perhaps. A Canadian rebel, using constructive criticism warfare.

I am a natural leader in the sense that if I am in a group setting, and there is no sense of leadership structure, I will instinctively assume this position. There are times or situations where this structure is already established, and...

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How I Use the Judgment Marking

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Others can receive judgment, but it can also be cast upon to ourselves and make us feel as though we are children being scolded by a parent or some authority.

These potential repercussions can create a great disturbance to us, particularly in cases where we are being judged for acting in a way that meets our needs (or someone we care for). This wearing on our consciousness can grow to compel u to act against our self-interests leading to an overall discontentment with our lives.

By utilizing...

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How I Use the Zephyr Marking

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When I think of the Zephyr marking, I think of a calm, relaxing day. A day so serene that even the weather, a phenomenon with such potential for mayhem and destruction, is gentle and soothing.

As a schizophrenic person, irritability is a common symptom. Prolonged irritability turns into anger, and prolonged anger can result in bouts of rage and violent outbursts (this violence has only been acted out on inanimate objects).

By focusing my will on the Zephyr marking, I am reminded of the...

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How I use the Growth Marking

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When I think of Growth, I think of life; sprawling into every crevice of what will sustain it. I think of overcoming, pausing, healing, spreading, sharing, and nurturing the growth of others, even in death.

For many people, the necessity to grow out of one's shortcomings are not always obvious. For me, in the context of my schizophrenia, I had some severe challenges to face beginning in my early teens. The beautiful thing about growth is that one can never stop growing.

By focusing my will on...

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How I Use the Protection Marking

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When I think of protection, I think of a barrier. On one side is a world of chaos, swirling about destructively and unpredictably. On the other, a fragile being that is completely aware of the perils it faces. In a feat of ingenuity, the being has constructed the barrier; a protective barrier.

In a sense, I use the Protection marking similar to how I use the Warning marking. However, there are often times that a violent reaction is precisely what the threat wants. In these cases, a more...

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How I Use the Innovation Marking

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When I think of innovation, I think of the idea of rejecting the status quo. The concept of upending our traditional systems to improve everyone's lives in a meaningful way.

For me, I have an endless amount of ideas, and sticking with the ideas I've already started working on can be challenging at times. I am fiercely loyal in my relationships. With my ideas, however, I am a relentless philanderer. That being said, ideas are a dime a dozen; true innovation happens when ideas are seen through...

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How I Use the Gratitude Marking

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When I look at the Gratitude marking, I often confuse it with the Healing marking. I find this entirely appropriate given that being grateful can create a feeling of healing.

When I've had an either an intense, or 2-dimensional day, I often feel drained, discontent, and ungrateful. This feeling can send me down a spiral of more days that are draining, full of discontent, and a lack of awareness for the things I should be grateful for.

By focusing my will on the Gratitude marking, I begin to...

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How I Use the Warning Marking

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A warning at its core is a presentation of choice. One choice may not be liked but will end with little consequence. The other choice is presented with the result that significantly outweighs the benefits. A simple concept to understand with considerable implications.

Sometimes, I am presented with quite real threats. These threats are not products of paranoia or delusion; they are products of unkind people with often harmful motivations or intentions.

By focusing my will on the Warning...

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