Curious Bloggings

Using Markings

How I Use the Brotherhood Marking

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When I think of the word ‘brotherhood,’ I think of a non-sexual, deep and caring love between two people. While the word itself implies a bond between men, women are participants in brotherhood.

The love is undoubtedly masculine in nature. It’s a sort of competitiveness, but never at the others’ expense. Being a psychotically paranoid person, I often see most men as a threat. I am suspicious of them and am always on guard. This state results in me being apprehensive,...

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How I Use the Self-Respect Marking

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Sometimes, I find myself putting the needs of others before my own. This may seem like a virtue, but if it goes to the extent of harming myself to carry out this good will, in the long run, I am doing a disservice to myself and others.

One time, I found my health deteriorating drastically from putting a significant amount of time and energy toward someone.

By focusing on the Self-Respect marking, I can reel myself back from the good I think I'm doing and see the harm I'm doing to myself. I...

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How I Use the Music Marking

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As someone with schizophrenia, I get distracted by so many things. Thoughts, sights, sounds, delusions, paranoia, hallucinations, patterns, smells, feelings, pains, phantom pains, the list goes on.

Music is a way to focus my mind and turn me away from all of the intrusive experiences. It makes me more present to the moment. However, I can't always turn up the volume and jam out wherever I want.

By focusing on the Music marking, I replicate the calming and focusing effects of music itself. I...

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How I Use the Sincerity Marking

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We've all done it before at some point; over-committed, overbooked, said to a friend, "we should see each other more often!" and then not see them again for 9 months.

We often lie to others inadvertently because we become victims of lying to ourselves.

By focusing on the Sincerity marking, my attention is brought to my over-excitement of the time. It gives me perspective on how I spend my time and gives me the ability to respond to those I care for honestly and respectfully.

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How I Use the Higher Vantage Marking

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All too often, people do and say things that make no sense to me. They are rude, insensitive, and unkind. I am so put off; my reaction compels me to redirect that behavior back at them.

That being said, we are human. We are compelled to do the opposite of that. But because of external factors, we unknowingly lose our humanity. It can happen sometimes, and there's nothing we can do to stop it.

By focusing on the Higher Vantage marking, I attempt to see the bigger picture through higher...

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How I Use the Community Marking

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By no means do I claim to be a bigot, but I grew up in an area where progressive thinking was far from the norm. Because of that, I have ingrained in me a natural resistance to ways of life I may not necessarily understand.

That being said, I am human, which means I have an innate need to love and be loved. With that in mind, how can I not love those who are trying to make their lives and the lives of others better and more loving?

By focusing on the Community marking, I shed my inner...

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How I Use the Silence Marking

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I find when I am in a quiet space, whether it be a silent room or a field at night, that stillness can bring noise inside – thoughts run rampant. As a schizophrenic person, this becomes the height of my paranoia and delusions. It brings disturbance to a place that is supposed to be peaceful.

By focusing on the silence marking, I create silence inside that drowns out the disturbance. I turn the light of the moon and stars to to cymbals of peace, I turn the vibration of the blankets...

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How I Use the Leading while Following Marking

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When I think of a leader in a subordinate position, I think of a rebel whose sole purpose is to challenge authority without actively attempting to de-legitimize said authority. A 'polite' rebel, perhaps. A Canadian rebel, using constructive criticism warfare.

I am a natural leader in the sense that if I am in a group setting, and there is no sense of leadership structure, I will instinctively assume this position. There are times or situations where this structure is already established, and...

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How I Use the Judgment Marking

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Others can receive judgment, but it can also be cast upon to ourselves and make us feel as though we are children being scolded by a parent or some authority.

These potential repercussions can create a great disturbance to us, particularly in cases where we are being judged for acting in a way that meets our needs (or someone we care for). This wearing on our consciousness can grow to compel u to act against our self-interests leading to an overall discontentment with our lives.

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How I Use the Zephyr Marking

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When I think of the Zephyr marking, I think of a calm, relaxing day. A day so serene that even the weather, a phenomenon with such potential for mayhem and destruction, is gentle and soothing.

As a schizophrenic person, irritability is a common symptom. Prolonged irritability turns into anger, and prolonged anger can result in bouts of rage and violent outbursts (this violence has only been acted out on inanimate objects).

By focusing my will on the Zephyr marking, I am reminded of the...

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